So...it's been a while.
Yup fell of the wagon so hard I got a concussion. Seriously I went on a food and sugar binge the day after my last post and spent the last...what is it? 2 months? in guilty denial. I didn't want to update because I didn't want to face the shame of having failed.
But seriously, is it really about failure? This blog is supposed to help me, not hurt me. And how many people have started a diet or lifestyle change that backfired? Most of the US population probably. So, let's restart, shall we?
I'm not just going to use this blog as a food diary and support network, I'm going to use it to air some of my experience of being fat. Most people don't realize what it's like to be 400lbs and to have been heavy for most of your life. They don't realize that food isn't my only nemesis. There are many arch-enemies in my life including chairs, stairs, and the second worst enemy of all: Gravity. More posts on these malicious entities will follow in due time.
Weight update: I was weighed at the doctor as being 398lbs! Woot! I'm under 400lbs! However, the scale at home weighs me at 409lbs...so...don't know where I stand...other than on a scale. I'm going to go ahead and assume my weight is closer to 409lbs and go from there. I was on these awesome antibotics that totally stopped me being hungry. More on that in tomorrow's post. I may not update everyday, but then again...I might. Don't know yet.
If you shouldn't judge a book by it's cover why do we work so hard to make them look pretty? And I'm not being metaphorical, there are some damn good looking books out there!
You're back! Hooray! :D
ReplyDeleteAs for the exact number, you might as well use the one on the scale you can get to more regularly. It might be off, but not by enough that it really matters. All you want to know (I assume) is if you're going up or down, and it can tell you that.
Thoughts for a regular feature: take a short walk around the neighborhood, then write about something you saw. Walking is excellent exercise and it'll give you something to post about that doesn't involve food. And a reason to walk. :)
Glad to see you getting back on here. the best way I've found for keeping up with something that can be hard to stay motivated to do is what I do with my work out program: I have a kind of schedule for it, which if I miss a day I just go back the next time as if I Hadn't missed it. don't worry about feeling guilty about screwing up or missing a day. just pretend you didn't do that and move on. If your goals take a bit longer. . know you have to be a bit more determined, but don't paralyze yourself with guilt over it.
ReplyDeleteThanks to both of you. Good thoughts! I may actually start doing the neighborhood walk -- that sounds like a fun idea. Thanks!
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